.shallow waters.

Alert: This is a very selfish blog.

I'm so sick of boys not caring. I'm doing my very best to be the best person I can be. And I feel like no one is noticing that. I'm sick of boys being shallow. I'm sick of the same pattern over and over: "I really think she's cool and an amazing girl, but I'm not sure why I'm not interested in her." What is that? Why don't guys like me? Why don't they know why they don't like me?

Is it looks? If so, how freaking shallow is that? No, I'm not gorgeous. But I'm not HIDEOUS either... It's like I repel them or something. I try to have a good sense of humor and personality around guys - they bring out the best in me usually. So maybe there's some huge physical feature I need to change. Or maybe I'm not seeing something in my personality that I'm not already aware of.

But holy crap. I'm so sick of this. I know I'm still young but most people at my age have at least had something. The closest I got.. well... it's still complicated with him. I'm worried that I'm so frustrated with everything that I'll just settle for him.

I am trying to fill my life with other things so that I can have a real life. Especially if I'm going to be living alone for most of my life...

Geez. It's a miracle anyone gets married.

Rant partially over for now.

Peace.