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Today I felt really close to myself today. My sister sent me a letter. In the envelope was a sealed envelope that read: "Don't open until Feb 2009"! It was a letter I wrote to myself two years ago as a senior in high school. Here's what part of it said:

Please, I hope as you're reading this, you have a lot of good friends around you. Maybe you'll be married. I highly doubt. My 17-year-old self fo' sho' isn't ready. Maybe you are. Please, if you're not reading your scriptures, do it. I haven't been and I think that's why I'm just so depressed and, well, I don't know the word. I guess empty. Pray to Heavenly Father. Even if you're not alone, He will still be there for you.
Take care! (Weird, I won't exist when you read this. Only in your mind...and in your heart). <3, Sydnee - Age 17.

That last bit really hit me. I felt like one of those movies where it's a split-reality. Like my old self was watching me as I read it. I wonder if we saw the whole part of our lives before we came to Earth. If we could see every decision that we'd end up making. If we could see how our agency would play out. I know Heavenly Father could see that - did He let us see that too? Was I fully aware of every single decision I'd be making if I came to Earth? Did I watch myself write this blog?

Who knows. All I know is, I want to make sure I keep living so that I make my 17-year-old, as well as my -2938485992 year-old self (pre-mortal) proud. I want to make sure I please my Father in Heaven most of all. And I'm going to do that the best that I can. Right alongside His Son.