So much has happened and yet nothing has happened. I am at a point where I have absolutely no idea where I will be in one year. I can guess I will still be at BYU. I can guess I will still be a Psych major. But will my roommates already be gone? Where will I be working? Will I be single or...not? There is a possibility. Will I be thinking about a mission still? Because I definitely am now. But there is still a little part of me that is saying I won't go. I don't understand what God is trying to tell me. I have received many answers to prayers and I felt very strongly that I should serve a mission. And I am so happy that that was my answer so many times. But at the same time, there's a nagging at the back of my heart that is saying I should stay here. Is that my own feeling of inadequacy or unpreparedness? Or is that the Lord telling me that I actually duped myself into believing I should go and that I'm actually supposed to stay here and fight on the home front? I wish He would just tell me straight out. I have faith that everything will work out, but I definitely do not have patience to wait for that.
My tops for now:
1. My Heavenly Father and also my Savior, Jesus Christ
2. Family
3. Roommates who love me.
4. BYU campus - it's beautiful right now.
5. Technology
6. PROPOSITION 8 PASSED
7. Sugar-free chocolate pudding
8. Taking hobo naps on campus
9. Piano music in the Terrace
10. Omelet night. =]
11. Missionary letters
12. Speaking SpanishI think it's great no one reads this. But if anyone does, just know that I am happy to be where I am right now. And remember to keep the suffering Saints in California in your prayers.
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